reality.

something struck me a minute ago, and i realised the fact that i've no one to cry on, at all. well, i guess all i could do is to let out a silent scream.

if that's part of your monkey business then i think you should poke your ass in it. i'm not here to tank all the embarassments, insults and all. i don't deserve this shit. you don't and you won't understand how it feels like to be in my position. hello, i'm currently in a difficult situation that i've to tide over and it feels like nobody cares. i'm nice, but please don't take advantage of me. my extreme tolerance has its limits, so please stop being so oblivious. i just can't accept the fact that i'm facing these shit alone. i really don't deserve this. its not even my fucking fault. hey, if you want to jump off the building and die. then please go. stop making a nuisance in my life. the twisted facts of yours is certainly unbearable. it hurts to really know and see that everyone have their happy family and yet i don't. i won't be surprise if i really carried out the thought of ending my life.

cos you guys don't know how much i cried, how i hid myself up and bear these shits, cos you guys don't know how many sleepless nights and problems i'm facing. fml.

people ask, why do you like to keep everything to yourself. well, you got my answer.

p.s: i hate to socialise, but i'm doing it cos i don't want to be alone.