whatever happens, happens.

if this continues, you will really lose me.

I need someone to rant to now. I feel suffocated. :'( Anyway, I'm intending to tender my resignation tomorrow. Fucking sicked and tired of my job. Yeah, call me 三分钟热度 or what. i give up totally man. I'm so sorry that i've disappointed you and let you down despite all your covering up(s) for me. I really appreciate it, best abang forever. okayz. Eh, i'm like stressed out so badly these days, this is totally uncool la. Messenger-ing Lynn late this night is totally uncool too. I have so much to say.

I want to change my blog link.
I want to private my blog.
I want to close down my blog.
I blog for the eyes which i don't want to have.
I blog about the stuff that i'll never tell you.
I blog about the truth.
I hate to show you this side of me.
I hate to let you know that i'm crazy over you.
I hate what i'm doing now.
Just want to say,
i like you okay, i know its stupid and i know you don't care.

this will always be your song. ♥

@Lawrence, you're awesome and i know that. i really appreciate what you've done for me but my stand still stays. both of us are aware that the plight i'm landed in now. don't persuade me to let go, because i can't and i won't. i love you, you're a great friend. i know, you won't mind being my bin but that's not what friends are for. i know that whatever happens you'll still be by me, standing up for me and you'll always be ready to be my punching bag. but i'm sorry, we can only be friends, nothing more. well, maybe your feelings did rekindle abit. but hey, that's probably because we are talking again, you're just so dependent on me. this is not love. don't say that you've never changed abit from the first day we met, 'cause i know you did. i'm sorry that i'm not observant enough over your practices and habits. Not like you don't know, every part of me is about him. well, i'd gladly apologize for the fact that i don't understand you as well as you understand me. Do you remember what i said from the first day, 喜欢他不是个选择, 是逼不得已.

@i'm not telling you it's going to be easy, i'm telling you it's going to be worth it.
如果你不爱我了, 要告诉我.
because i love you too much to walk away.